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09 oct 2008

 Fuck, I'm watching myself start to relapse, and I haven't even gained enough weight to be healthy yet. Fuck this disorder. I don't want to die anymore! 
Oh my damn. He proposed.

Noah... proposed...
To me.

I'm fucking marrying the man of my dreams.

Where did I go right?

...I'm getting married!

31 aoû 2008

Hey everyone. It's been a while. I got back from New York last week. Since then, I've been plunged from the peaceful stillness of vacation right into my lectures and research and work. It's putting a strain on the progress I've made lately. When I'm busy all day, it's hard to make sure I'm eating.

I do have some good news. I'm working in a research laboratory with some other students this year, and one of the undergrads has me quite excited. I don't normally see a lot of undergrad students with promise, but this girl is brilliant. She's only a sophomore and knows more miscellaneous shit about psychology than most of my grad student classmates. The best part of this? She wants to specialize in eating disorder research and treatment. I'm fully convinced that in about 8 or 9 years when she gets her doctorate, she'll be a specialist to really watch. :) Finally, someone who might be able to help. Maybe I can get her to join a research project with me.

How is everyone else doing? I miss you guys and think about you every day! Let me know how you are, really. :)

07 aoû 2008

I know I'm gaining, and I'm trying to be okay with it... I'm trying to focus on the health aspect of it. As soon as we get back, I'm throwing away the scale. I just have to.

01 aoû 2008

God, sorry I've been so MIA lately, guys! I needed to get through some shit, and I was so sick for a while. I'm in New York for a few weeks, so I'll be on sparingly, but I'll try to keep up with everyone. I love you all! How are my lovelies doing? Leave me a comment :)

16 juil 2008

I hate sitting on wooden or metal chairs for more than a few minutes. Goddamned bony ass. I have to put a pillow on everything like my 70 year-old grandmother.

Oh, the glamor of anorexia.

23 juin 2008

Just made a new community, since it seems we don't have one like it...


20 juin 2008

I started this lj because I can't be anorexic on my own anymore. -_- I love Noah, but he makes this hard on me. :(